More than this .

There are so many things that I want to do but the time seems so less.

I have been trying to find some time to write , and lately I have been feeling that the talent that my father has given me I am not using it to fullest, there is lack of participation , sharing , lack of growth , like am taking everything for granted. Is it coz I am getting comfortable with my life  or is it that I am running lack of energy to sustain this potential Or am simply not managing my time or of my poor choices . Sometimes am so excited and trilled for life ,then sometimes am quite as a night , in  a stand by mode.

I feel like I have been wasting a lot of time thinking and not living to fullest .

The other things have been stealing my time for growth . 

Like sitting in front of tv and not letting the ideas to flow into paper . Like unnecessary conversation which could not be any helpful and doesn't help to built me up for any good. 

This has become a pulse-tile form . From work to home is a routine cycle and there has not been any dynamic style . Every morning I pray I read from scripture , and I also feel charge but as the day pass, I am fading.  As a born again Christian I am learning it's not the matter of the day spent with god will keep me charge . It's the ongoing doing of Christ in my heart , his 24x7 work In me , is keeping me charge. ..when I finish to pray I don't leave God behind the doors of my house. He goes with me, I can stay in conversation with him always , but I have to choose , I have to be intentional about it. And things will change. I feel so good even as i am writing my thought on the blog . I am deciding to make my relationship with Christ more real, more intimate , he is interested in my interest , he wants to have fellowship with me even as I travel by metro . I want to respond to his call of deeper and meaning full friendship . I know there is so much more to life than for what I am living , so much more to hear ,so much more to do, so much more to receive and so much more experience . 

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