Time moves but can't heal .

Absolutely nothing is in my head

I don't know if I am angry , hurt or disappointed 

I have encountered pain with such closeness, still jolts me up.

I have lost something I loved even before seeing .

It's heavy and dark 

Not time but God can only heal

Time moves but can't not heal 

Time runs like a spinning toy 

Time can't control anything 

Everything is a destiny and noting is coincidence 

Everything is ordained .

Born or not born 

Everything has a destiny .

Every story that has pain,will have its own beautiful beginning . 

I can surrender to God can  totally be like Job or run far away from him 

But if I am still alive and my heart is still beating 

Should I not be grateful for it.

I have cried my heart out and if still God leaves his peace with me 

Should I not just receive it and not try to understand how his Grace works .

I can't not let the anger settle inside me .

Because I am not created for this .

I will not allow enemy to steal anything that belongs to me .

The peace is like a wind comes from unknown direction .

It restore back anything that has been taken .

So that I can still be grateful .